Counting down the hours

image On the eve of the birth of my third (and last) child, I’m feeling a lot of different things. Strangely, what I’m NOT feeling is excitement. And I feel bad about that. I’m not sure if the lack of anxiety is causing me to feel that I’m more “whatever” about this child, or if I’m genuinely NOT looking forward to the forseeable future. It’s true though; I can’t imagine how we’re going to juggle a third child. Not financially. Not from a scheduling standpoint. Not any way actually.

People do it I know and we’ll figure it out too, but I feel that I’ve come to a turning point in my life. Up until now I’ve been able to pretty much juggle things well enough to still do the things that I want to do—the gym, going into and getting out of work early, etc. But now, I think it’s decision time. Lately I’ve been really asking myself if I’m ready to be “average guy Joe.” Am I ready to give up trying to keep myself fit and trim in order to be able to meet the scheduling demands of three kids? Am I prepared to work 9-5 so that I can help my wife get the kids to school in the morning? Am I prepared to stop having ANY free time at all so I can give my kids all the things they need to succeed in this world?

It’s a lot to come to grips with. And I’m not sure that I have, which might explain this…lack of feeling I have. Maybe it’ll hit me tomorrow at the hospital, or maybe it’ll hit me in several months when my little girl locks eyes with me in an unexpected moment of baby clarity. We’ll see.

Ultrasound Day!

It’s a boy!

(yep, that makes three)

It's a boy small

After we got the lil’ booger to quit flopping around, it was confirmed! I suppose it’s only fair since, were it not for my dad adopting me and my brother, his family name would have ended with him. None of my dad’s three other brothers had any boys of their own. I suppose that, despite there not being any of his families’ blood in me and my kids, those who come after us need not know that.

We’re right at 20 weeks, although the baby is mostly measuring from 18-19 weeks. We P&P’ers are small people, so we’re not worried. Everything else looks fine and his…um…”junk” certainly seems to be working!

TEN YEARS LATER UPDATE: So this all took place at our 20 week (5 months!) ultrasound. A month later we returned for a wellness check and since we’d have the misfortune of miscarrying a couple of times, I went with CareerMom for most of these.

As we were standing in the room, the ultrasound tech was doing her usual chatting and she said the word, “She.”

I quickly glanced down at CareerMom and we exchanged confused glances. I then said, “Excuse me. You said “She.” We have bee told at our last three exams that it’s a boy.”

The tech replied, “Nope, it’s definitely a girl.”
It WAS a girl! And she’s amazing!